Santa Barbara

Santa Barbara is one of California’s undeniable gems— perfect weather, irresistibly quaint architecture, hipster restaurants, shopping, beaches.  And yet, we’ve got a dark and sordid history with this beautiful town.

It all started back during my first visit as a tween.  One day I was traipsing around the woods with my best friend, Esther, and the following weekend I was miserably trapped in this quaint town with half my face covered in poison oak.  Grumpy doesn’t even begin to describe it.

Many years later, James and I planned a trip to Santa Barbara for his birthday— Jake was just 15 months old.  All we really remember about that trip was a little, bald tyrant fussing and complaining while we tried to enjoy a beautiful dinner at the end of the pier.  The following day we sat on a bench in a shaded paseo, debating our options for lunch as the tyrant continued his incessant malcontent.  We gazed at the Panda Express, looming at the end of the passageway, and vividly lamented that we might never enjoy a lovely meal again.  The only time I remember a smile on that kid’s face during the entire trip was our stop at the U-Pick Blueberry Patch, allowing him to pop $15 worth of blueberries into his mouth, and keeping him happy for 5 minutes of the remaining 4 hour drive home.

And then there was this weekend.  We decided to visit the Santa Barbara Zoo, which was not much farther than our previous drive to San Francisco.  The day was beautiful.  The zoo was beautiful.  But Nate?  Nate was not so beautiful.  Bouts of complaining and whining and refusing to walk.  Hiding under foliage.  Begging for piggy-back rides.  He sat on the lawn and shouted, and I quote, “I’m never going home.  I’m going to stay here for the rest of my life!”

Fine.  Stay with your brother.  Daddy and I are going to a beautiful lunch.

Milestones

Childhood is full of many milestones that most of us have long forgotten: finger snapping, chopsticks, blowing a bubble.

Last week Jacob tied his first bow— on his swim trunks of course.  I haven’t bought any shoes that tie as all shoes that aren’t KEENS are immediately transformed into trash that vaguely resembles footwear.  And KEENS appear to be fastened solely via mini bungee cords, so his unfamiliarity with laces is certainly my fault.  But those slip-on bungee cords have saved us countless hours.

About two week ago, after a Friday at camp centered around “wheels” and all manner of bikes, skateboards, and scooters, Jake came home and immediately removed the training wheels from his bike.  He wasn’t able to master his Teenage Mutant Ninja turtle bicycle that day, but he was back on it last weekend.  And just like that, he was riding.  A few loops around the yard and he declares, “Look Mom, I’m already a pro.”

Next up?: whistling.

Indians

The boys have spent the summer in a traveling Y camp… traversing the entire county of San Luis Obispo.  They’ve walked miles and miles to swimming pools, museums, fire stations, boats, grocery stores, gardens, parks, waterslides and pizza parlors.  Everywhere we go, Nate sees city buses he’s ridden around town– Bus 4, Bus 2b, Bus 1!  Although still not immune to complaining, the boys’ distance and stamina has grown considerably in just eight weeks.

Taking advantage of this newfound fortitude, two weekends ago we had the most wonderful Sunday.  It started with breakfast at The Market, our new go-to barrio bistro.  It’s not quite Pasta P, but they do have mint It’s It’s and good wine.  Nate rode his bike and Jake rode his scooter all the way to Avila Beach on the Bob Jones Trail.  About 2.5 miles into the trip, I realized both Nate’s tires were flat… poor kid.  He only crashed once down the hill onto the golf green.  A stop to pump-up the tires and a quick refuel, and the boys made it all the way back.  Then we enjoyed a delicious lunch in AG and wrapped-up the afternoon with gourmet coffee and a spirited match of Battleship.  Of course I lost to the Reining Connect 4 King.

This past weekend we hiked Poly Canyon to check-out the Architecture Graveyard… the covert location of many college parties, and a place I’ve always wanted to see.  Over the years, architecture students have constructed projects up this remote canyon on an open, grassy hillside— from artistic sculptural concoctions to a suspended boat prow to an open-air house inspired by the inside of a conch shell.  As one would expect, most are in disrepair with varying levels of spray paint, vandalism and poison oak.

We climbed and explored each structure with an appropriate level of precaution and enthusiasm.  In the middle of the large geodesic dome were the remains of a frequently used campfire, strewn with broken beer bottles.

Nate surveys the campfire and affirms authoritatively, “Indians.  Must’ve been Indians.”

I Spy

A few weeks ago we were spending hours and hours in the car… driving all around California for various moving activities and parties and holidays.  At one point I think we had banned iPads due to various infractions and were rewarded with the following:

Jake: “I spy with my little eye, something that is yellow.”
Nate: “A car.”
Jake: “No.”
Nate: “That sign?”
Jake: “No.”
Nate: “The sun.”
Jake: “No.”
Nate: “I dunno… I give up.  What is it?”
Jake: “A Trump!”
Nate: “What’s a Trump?”
Jake: “I don’t even know… do you?”

And then a fit of giggles…

Whaboutif

Nate is at least six good months into his “Whaboutif Phase.”  Meaning that every day, most conversations involve him venturing further and further into imaginative what-if scenarios and preposterous proposals.  He asks things like:

“Whaboutif you had three eyeballs?”
“Whaboutif it flew into the sky and then hit the moon and then crashed into the planets and exploded?”
“Whaboutif there is hot lava in the whole entire earth?
“Whaboutif a little fish comes through the pipe into the swimming pool?  Whaboutif a BIG fish does?
“Whaboutif I shot my hamburger up into the sky for the buzzards to swoop down and eat?  Or a mermaid?”

And then sometimes he’ll quickly and authoritatively pipe-up, “That could happen!”

And Jake will confirm with a confident and all-knowing nod, “Everything is possible.”

Over the last few weeks, the boys and I have been creating a fortress around our fenced garden where I’ve been trying to start a compost pile.  We are in desperate need of a soil replenishment strategy as much of our property is covered in moon rock.

Unfortunately, every few mornings I’ll go out and I can tell that some kind of animal has magically alluded our barriers and eaten the buried “Mother Nature”… also known as kitchen scraps.  Jake and Nate did a superb job of piling rocks up along the fenced perimeter and helping me to block any possible culprit from squeezing in through any nook and cranny.  It was a real-life Minecraft building project.

Then yesterday morning I caught it on video.  A little gray fox that is able to leap a six foot metal fence like a cat-like ninja.  She is cute and flexible and loves her breakfast compost.  Meanwhile, this weekend I was dive-bombed on our back deck by a drunken yellow jacket who stung me and caused my eye to swell shut.  In an act of revenge, my new yellow jacket traps have attracted several hundred insects.

So I was thinking… “Whaboutif I add two hundred yellow jackets to tomorrow’s compost and bury it and then the little fox comes for her morning breakfast and then eats them and it causes her to leap onto the roof of the barn?”

That could happen.

Casi Cielo

Years and years ago, back when James and I first got married, we dreamed of one day moving to San Luis Obispo and building a Spanish-style house.  We envisioned a beautiful view and room to entertain and we called it Casi Cielo… “Almost Heaven” in Spanish.

But then we found ourselves the perfect little 1930 Spanish-style bungalow with all of its original details on an idyllic tree-lined street in the heart of San Jose.  A neighborhood with a beautiful new library and a new elementary school, historic homes and an inviting rose garden, Peet’s and Pasta P, all within walking distance.  I took one walk around the entire house, noted the milk delivery door and the mail slot and knew it was exactly what we were looking for.  Baby Jakey rolled over for the first time on a clean blanket covering the filthy matted dining room carpet.

We moved-in in October, after scraping together enough to renovate the one full bathroom and redo the hardwood floors.  We saved and spent, saved and spent, one project at a time until seven years later, the house was exactly what we knew it could be.

And over the years, we brought Baby Natesy home, too.  And we filled that house with memories… every nook and cranny brimming with stories of our baby boys:

  • The back door, where Jacob could barely walk and already knew how to take my keys to try and unlock the door and leave.  He was mad and wasn’t getting what he wanted.
  • The kitchen floor where we spent hours playing… Nate perched in his high chair as Jake put on a show.
  • The boys running circles around “the track”– the loop that was naturally created between the living room, dining room and kitchen.
  • The unfortunate view from the kitchen table of little Nate in the half bathroom.
  • Coming home at night and Nate rushing to open the front door for me.  And making me re-close it if I opened it myself.
  • Seeing the boys watching TV, always cuddled together on the couch or in a chair– their little blond heads just inches apart.
  • Reading and ‘nuggling and “telling stories with my mouth” in the bottom bunk every night, just the three of us.
  • The boys hiding plastic snakes and cockroaches in my unsuspecting luggage as I packed for business trips.
  • The little pebble pit by the back door where I had to start storing the “bootiful wocks” Nate would bring home for me every day from St. Lizzie’s.
  • The boys splishing and splashing in the inflatable pool in the backyard, and later on, watching movies outside as we curled-up under a blanket.
  • Thursday play days with Grandma and Granddad.
  • Bathtub shenanigans.
  • Hot summer days, laying on a picnic blanket in the front yard while the boys dug in the dirt in their diapers and their birthday suits.
  • Eating play kitchen meals and playing games of Old Maid and Magna-block building challenges.

Packing-up the house and saying goodbye was much harder than we anticipated and really, it’s because we weren’t just saying goodbye to our beautiful little home and our jobs and our family and friends.  We were also saying goodbye to Baby Jake and Baby Nate– recognizing that their babyhood is already over and now they’re bigger than ever.

Yesterday the sale closed and we said one last mental goodbye to Shasta… finally realizing we had already lived-in the Spanish-style house we dreamed of so long ago… our Casi Cielo.

Snackbag

It’s a bit of a seven year saga that I’m not really in the mood to rehash… but long story short, Jacob has what is called sugar sensitivity.  In a nutshell, his blood sugar is highly volatile and what he eats tips his biochemistry out of whack, wreaking havoc with his emotions and his self esteem.

As a baby he rarely cried.  He was super happy.  And he was eating every three hours on the nose.  Then as his eating habits evolved, he became a little ticking time bomb… first we thought it was just the terrible two’s.  But then it was the trying three’s.  And the tantrumy four’s.  And what my sister-in-law has started calling the “effing five’s.”  His meltdowns were epic.  They came out of nowhere and seemed to last forever.  We tried so many things— Time outs make it worse.  Is he over-tired?  Too much screen time?  Transitions are a challenge.  He’s just the most stubborn and willful child on the face of the planet… it was an emotional roller coaster and he had us all along for the ride.

Then, about six years into this, we were in the driveway of what has now become our “mountain house.”  One minute Jake was happy and talkative, and the next minute he was refusing to get into his car seat and was crouched on the floor of the car.  I checked my watch: 10:15am.  Almost exactly three hours since breakfast.  Every Saturday around 10:15am Jake’s personality switch flips.  I think I’m on to something…

It was August, after a particularly horrendous weekend, when I started googling things on my phone desperately searching for answers.  I literally cried on the platform of Caltrain when I finally found Dr. Kathleen DesMaisons write-up on sugar sensitive children.

And so we started focusing on food.  Especially breakfast.  And protein.  And feeding him “enough and on time.”  It hasn’t been a silver bullet… but it has certainly changed our lives.  I traded in my diaper bag for the orange insulated snack bag… emergency provisions that I never leave home without.

This weekend we were headed up to Great Grandma Terra’s 80th birthday party and I was driving and singing along to the radio.  James found my new lyrics to Old Dominion’s “Snapback” country song particularly funny:

Those stars need to be wished on
Your skin needs to be kissed on
My eyes baby they’re fixed on you and your snackbag
T-shirt of your favorite rock band
Checkin’ your make-up in my Ray Bans
Breakin’ hearts like only you can and your snackbag

Woah oh oh oh
Woah oh oh oh
Woah oh oh oh
And your snackbag

Even Jakey now exclaims, “Mom, Mom– Snackbag!” when it comes on the radio.  I can totally see the YouTube video…

LOL

The first week I came down to Los Osos was really lonely.  Just me and Hot Lava.  Hot Lava isn’t much of a conversationalist.  I think it was only four days, but for some reason it felt really long.    My evenings were really just a blur of Friday Night Lights on my iPad and McConnell’s ice cream from Santa Barbara.

About a week or so later, the boys move down and I think Jakey starts to feel a little homesick.  During a period when he’s locked-out of Minecraft, he somehow figures out he can text message anyone with an Apple device and thus… his text messaging career begins.  It was a bit startling to wake-up to that text message chime, only to see:

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I get a lot of repeat “Mom’s” if I don’t reply quickly.  He’s quite masterful with his emoji.

Despite all our vigilant screen time policing, it was good.  Instead of eating Santa Barbara ice cream, Jake was connecting with anyone he could reach.  Feeling that little spark of excitement one feels when conversing via a particularly timely text exchange.  Auntie Angela has turned out to be his most reliable and creative messaging buddy.

So tonight we were reading Harry Potter in my bed and Jake was picking his nose… Despite my repeated attempts to provide him with a tissue.  Finally I said, “Jacob stop picking your nose!  I will hold you personally accountable if I find any boogers on my side of the bed.”

And he replies, “But I’m not a cannibal. I’ve never even eaten one single person.”

Once I compose myself and explain the meaning of accountable, we both have a good laugh.

I open my little notes app and quickly jot down the conversation and he reaches over and writes, “Hahaha” at the end.

LOL.

Paper Mountain

It’s Day 59 of The Great Move of Two-Thousand and Sixteen.  Those last numbers appear to represent the number of boxes we continue to pack and unpack and repack with our earthly possessions.  As of today, our belongings are in San Jose, in a POD somewhere in the Bay Area, remnants are sprinkled about Los Osos and then of course, most of the bare basics are now in San Luis Obispo.  This inventory doesn’t even include some box of books my mom is trying to get me to move out of her attic.  If only I had the strength…

Though all of our strategically planned life goals have fallen into place including a new house, new jobs, new school and a new car (we just threw that one in for the sake of completeness), the smaller logistical details have been well… less smooth.  First there was the UHaul truck debacle two Friday’s ago.  Apparently reserving a truck on UHaul.com is just a virtual suggestion and when it was time to go get our truck, James was told he’d have to pick-up and drop-off in Oakley.  A destination that technically appears to have little blue specks of the East Bay on a Google map… but those may actually just be irrigation ditches in the Central Valley.  After some good old fashioned customer service ranting, he found a yellow Penske truck in Santa Clara and disaster was averted.

On moving day, as I was taking my gazillionth trip back to the basement, I saw a dog run into my backyard like she knew exactly where she was going.  A quick scan and James would have sworn I was hallucinating.  But, there she was… hiding in the corner under the bamboo.  No one claimed her along my street except the mysteriously new delusional lady who tried to give me some old cassette tapes.  Just what we needed on moving day.  Fortunately some animal rescue ladies showed-up several hours later and took our little growling stray away.  Everything else went pretty smoothly, except the part where James’ credit card was stolen and used online at Best Buy… the most likely culprit being the savior turned suspicious Penske truck place.

After a brief respite in Los Osos, we’re now sleeping for real in our real beds in the “Mountain House” as Nate calls it.  A few hiccups like our pans not working on the induction stove (we can live on cereal!) and recycling not being offered on our road (we’re building a giant artistic sculpture dedicated to moving titled Paper Mountain).  I’m sure someday I’ll stop using a wardrobe box as a nightstand.

During the first week of Y camp, the boys made tie-dye shirts.  As we searched fruitlessly for Nate’s new $7 wardrobe statement piece, I asked him where it could be.  And he told me, “Check the Temple!  It must be in the Temple.”

Which turned out to be the school gym…  a lot has certainly changed.  Good news is, Nate’s still Jewish.

Warning

22 o’ June, 2016

Me Dear Tooth Fairy,

‘Tis been donkey’s years since we saw each other at de Fairy, Leprechaun an’ Human Relations Conference.  ‘ope we cross paths again soon!  Oi wanted ter warn yer aboyt a wee 7-year-auld fella named Jacob, as Ah’ve ‘eard through de shamrocks you’ve been visitin’ ‘imself quite often.

Nigh Jacob an’ oi, we go way back… ‘e’s been tryin’ ter catch me since ‘e wus four years auld.  Last year, yer man got a glimpse av me as oi made a break for it from Maestra Patiño’s classroom.  An’ den dis year… dis year ‘e built quite a sophisticated wee trap for me on me speshal day in March.

Bejasus, oi barely made it oyt alive.  Lost me ‘igh-top green sneakers oi pinched aff a Ken doll– stuck in a tricky Scotch tape trap ‘idden under a cardboard box ‘an a chopsteck.  Ambushed!  Only got tree gran’ bites oyt av de sweet paddah, too.

Ward on de street is teeth been fallin’ oyt av ‘is noggin loike paci’s outta a wee one.  Seems every time ‘is mom’s away, another wan jist jumps oyt av ‘is gob.  As oi said, ‘e’s oyt ter catch me… but since ‘e’s ‘ad naw luk, nigh ‘is sight’s are set on yer!

Seems innocent enoof dat ‘is Tooth Fairy pillow is wedged solidly under ‘is pillow at noight, but make naw mistake… ‘he’s tryin’ ter catch yer in de act.  De fella is ‘ell bent on catchin’ ‘imself a wee person.  Oi even ‘eard ‘imself tellin’ ‘is ma waaat kind av cage ‘e’ll keep me in.  An yer too.  Yer man knows oi’m fast, but ‘e’s got de flyin’ tin’ al’ taken care av.

Lost ‘is second front tooth on de last day av first grade an’ nigh yer man ‘as a gap in ‘is gob as big as two gauld coins.  Went ter Grandma an’ Granddad’s de first weekend in June an’ pulled another tooth oyt loike corn on a cob.  Sure you’re feelin’ mighty stoney broke after 5 teeth an’ so many long distance flights ter San Jose, Los Osos an’ Santa Cruz.  Speakin’ av Santa Cruz… maybe that’s why yer man looks a wee loike a vampire dees days?

In any case, consider yerself warned me dear.

Yisser true so ’tis mucker,
Sneaky O’Guinness

PS: Yer ‘av a bonny smile.  Ye workin’ Froiday noight?  Ah’ve glued Jake’s teeth in nice an’ tight so yer can take a noight aff.  Pick yer up at 8?